Evil??

Have had headaches for the past few days, got a bit of a head cold today. On Friday they were threatening to become a full blown migraine, nausea, enhanced sense of smell but was at work and there was a lot to do. Paracetamol didn't work, it just tasted funny and the water I had with it tasted awful. So I grabbed my phone and listened to a hypnotherapy recording on it, a ten minute relaxation break, the difference was wonderful, I was able to function that is until a woman with the worst smelling perfume came near me. Sat in a dark room listening to it again and was able to function until the end of the day.





What has just gotten to me is that after facebooking about it I got a comment that I need to stay away from hypnosis, that it's evil and to take Panadol instead. It's no wonder I hide much of my beliefs from family members, I've only ever given the link to this blog to one family member and did regret it right away, I took the blog down for a while, I don't even know if they do read it. Apart from myself, my worst critics have always been some family members, which took the confidence rug right out from under me. Hypnosis has given back what was taken away.



I am trying to reduce the amount of chemicals in my life, the dependancy on man made drugs, eating more natural organic foods - which right now feels like a losing battle. I use earth friendly laundry wash, I won the battle with that, my husband kept coming home with the chemical laiden stuff until I pointed out cost. He's big on cost. He did however refuse to use the homemade laundry wash even though it was much better budget wise.



Really need to get out and start growing some vegies, my yard is very neglected. One of the things I remember about attempting this in the past is that my husband was aghast at eating home grown vegies and I quote " it's been outside, it can't be safe". That was a while ago and we've been watching River Cottage since then and I hope it's rubbing off. After watching that show I no longer buy barn laid eggs, opting for free range, organic - the same goes for Chicken, I buy free range but we still get the other stuff, again my husband does a lot of the buying and it's all cost to him. It only costs a couple of dollars extra per kilo and it tastes better, a roast chicken is so much plumper and moist when cooked. I tend to get more meals out of an organic one than the other.



I am changing , I hope for the better. I love my husband, even though I don't always show it to him and others, I have rarely worn my wedding ring over the past 23 years of marriage. A couple of weeks ago I discovered my wedding ring in the drawer and decided to make the effort of wearing it, it's only been off my finger a couple of times since - mainly to stop dough getting into the diamond settings. I really no longer am a diamond/gold girl and the ring looks a bit wimpy with out the matching engagement ring, it's still waiting to be repaired after the diamond fell out years ago. My choice of jewellery these days is silver with natural semi precious stones, once I went for miniscle pieces I now go for more substantial items. The top ring is my Grandmothers, I think it's a Topaz, the second is an Adventurine I wear most of the time, it's on my finger right now and the other is Eye of Ra, flanked by Ankhs - Male and Female energies. These all now are my preferred type of rings, I love wearing my Grandmother's ring out and love the attention it recieves. After Nanna passed I found it in her drawer and asked Mum if I could have it, she told me that I would probably be the only one who would wear it, or could for that matter, my fingers are larger than the rest of the females in my family and the ring fits me perfectly.